Illusions. This is what I live for. Reality. Will just be next to impossible. This is what my life is. This will always be my life. To live in illusions. To continue searching for the reality.
Heartaches will now reach the closing stages. Opening a new chapter. Never thought it will still lead to heartaches.
Amelioration of the past is my suffering. I have waited for three years searching for the light. The light that will bring me to someone who will teach me how to love again.
I sailed on the rivers. There were two ways. The "A" and the "R." To whom will my heart cross. To the "R" who is very new to me. Or to the "A" who might be the same old "A" that I met three years ago. Yes, I've found another "A." Reservation is what my mind is saying. Endeavor is the shout of my heart. I broke the walls of reservation and entered the door of endeavor.
Bar. Beer. Party. Conversations. The days that we were together was all about these. Your face. Your every smile. I all cherished these. Your eyes. Staring. Melting me. I have to admit that I was on a cloud nine when I met you. I first met you "A". I first fell in love for "R." You expunge the feelings that I have for "R." You showed me the way. Led me. I followed you. Hopes. I have full of hopes that you could be the one. Chance. I believed. I took. I broke all the promises that I had long ago. I took the chance of loving you. I took the chance of letting myself love again. You may have the same first letters but it doesn't mean you are also capable of doing what my past "A" has done to me.
'Til one day. Me. You. Her. Me from afar. You with her. Me crying. Her smiling. Me holding nothing. You holding her hand. In your hand I found Hopes. In your hand I meet Heartache...again.
Heartaches. Another Heartaches.
I reminisced the past. What if? What if I took the other way?
